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my son sun joy
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If anything ever happens to me, make sure Hanz reads the Gospel of Thomai
and checks his email as I've sent stuff there for him to read and I know he doesn't check it often.
password to his gmail acct is in the next friend's only post.

precious gems
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You can create Balance. You can give your daughter a strong name, save the diminutive name for your pets. You can remind her that it is healthy and attractive to do well, to stretch and grow and to win. Not to worry about the boys who only like her when she loses, they aren't hers to take care of; let them go the way of the dinosaurs. As with all children, just let them be who they really are. See them as gems, raw, cut, polished- gems! Let your boys play with dolls, wear pink, care, love, cry, no shaming them when they lose-some the greatest successes have come after many losses. Treat them as LOVE INCARNATE. Celebrate their process no matter what.

surround sound
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Duality is an illusion. There is no need to see the world in black and white. We get to experience the full spectrum of color, of sound, of height and width, male and female, strong and weak, awake and asleep.

war
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No thing can prevent us from being one.

The struggle to define us as separate is a dis ease.

When it comes to war, to killing and maiming children, people on all "sides" will fabricate justifications.

No justification can take away the ripple effect. There are no sides. We are all one.

swimming is healing
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the next place I live in will have a warm water pool that I can swim in everyday.

in to it
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Strengthening intuition is a matter of honoring

that voice within,

that gut feeling,

the combination of deductive reasoning and

openness to the collective unconscious that gives us

hints, sometimes illuminating our path.

not your fault, your fault, who cares- just THRIVE
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Some experiences you make happen, some experiences happen to you. What you do with both types of experiences is more important than blaming yourself while surviving. To thrive is beyond forgiving self and others- thrive doesn't give a shit "why" or "how" (theories and ideas abound) instead knowing "what" (leads to action and gratitude).

What good is this? What can I use this for? What am I learning? What's next?

Thank you
Susun S Weed for teaching to ask "What".

SIBO (small intestinal bacterial overgrowth) diet
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Time to make some adjustments.

The Dr. asks that I avoid raw vegetables --mostly what I eat
He suggests I eat cooked veggies instead - OK
Avoid wild rice --good bye for now the wild black and brown rice I've been eating lately
Potatoes are ok and so is pasta and whole grain bread just avoid the ones with nuts --I love nuts, especially raw nuts- see ya later.
Avoid soy --that's easy, except for soy Bragg Amino "soy sauce" I don't like the feeling soy creates.
Avoid beans --oh dear, another main staple of mine....later gator.
Eat fruit --I hardly ever eat fruit. I will shop for fruit at the farmers market.
meat, fish, poulty eggs are good --what I eat the least, but not a problem
He suggest 40 grams or LESS of sugar and to avoid all the fake sweeteners as well -- that's not too hard

time to adjust


He also prescribed pro biotics in non dairy form.

I also have been drinking warm and cold individual herbal infusions of
Mint
Sage
Chamomile
Ginger
and will add
Comfry  to the list (mail order)

Would love to find some fresh nettles too.

I've started practicing Yoga again- that is very helpful.

Hearty and Fresh at the same time
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3 cups Black Rice- cook as you would Brown Rice. I use 1/4 cup less water per cup of rice than usually suggested.
1/2 cup Raw Cashew Pieces
1 cup Raw Almond Slivers
2 Red
Bell Peppers
2 Orange Bell Peppers
2 Yellow Squash
2 Zucchini
2 Celery Stalks
4 Crushed Garlic Cloves

2 Whole Garlic Cloves (add to rice while it's cooking)
2 Handfulls Fresh Mint
1 Handful Fresh Basil
Ground Pink Salt
Ground Black Pepper
DRESSING:
1 cup Extra Virgin Greek Olive Oil
1 cup Fresh Lemon Juice

1/2 Cup Ginger Juice (optional)

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I have a rice cooker and use the Brown Rice adjustment for Black Rice.
People usually add 2 cups water for every 1 cup Rice, but I prefer 1 and 3/4 cup of water per 1 cup Rice.
I also don't cook it as long as most people would.

I julienne the veggies, then chop then further to make small cubes.
The raw nuts are already in pieces and sliced via Trader Joe's market.
After giving the fresh herbs a bath and spinning dry, I stack them, roll them like a cigar then use scissors to cut them into the bowl that has the veggies.

Dressing-  whisk Lemon, Olive Oil, Ginger (optional) Salt and Pepper.

Toss the Veggies together with the Dressing, place in big serving bowl or dish, create a hole for the Rice.
Add rice, drizzle dressing on and garnish with a sprig of fresh Mint or Basil.

Summer Salad: Watermelon, Cucumber
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SUMMER SALAD:
Watermelon, Cucumber, French Feta, Mint and Basil. You can add Balsamic Vinegar reduction, I don't think it needs it.

APPETIZER:
Use a toothpick to hold a cube of Watermelon, topped with a thin slice of Cucumber, a cube of Feta and a sprig of Mint- add a drop of Balsamic for a perfect bite.

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healthcare - how a simple solution I couldn't afford turned into a bigger problem
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I remember telling a Production Assistant that I was experiencing heartburn even before coffee, water or food in the mornings on Decisions Decisions, a series for ABC that I production supervised in 2008.
He asked, "How long has it been like that?"
I remember answering, "like two years or so"
He of course, suggested I see a Dr.

I knew he was right, I should see a Dr., but I couldn't afford one that month.

The next time I did manage to finance a visit with a Dr. (we had to pay cash in full when we had a pre existing condition like asthma in the USA until this year), I told him about my heartburn and the long list of remedies I tried to fix it with- none worked. I was carrying antacids with me everywhere. He told me it was possible I had a bacterial infection in my small intestine and that there was a medicine that could cure me of that, but first I'd have to be tested by a gastroenterologist. The medicine that eliminates that particular bacteria can only be subscribed after a positive result of a specific test.

I researched how much it would cost and if I could find an inexpensive way to do it. It's important for people who have always had access to insurance and health care to know that if you don't have insurance in the USA, you have to pay cash up front.

The best deal I could find was:
$300 initial visit
$900 test
$85 follow up for results of test
$1,550 non generic medication (they have generic now- $700)

I was already paying more than $500 per month for asthma meds, I was a single mom, renting after selling my home to help pay off medical bills from 1991, I was barely making ends meet.
So, I put it off,
and off,
and off.

Meanwhile, I started gaining weight. My sleep was interrupted with heart burn. I started burping all the time.
My stomach was distended. I was unable to eat fruit without getting sick. I developed hypothyroidism. My hair thinned, my eyelashes and brows thinned, my skin changed, I developed eczema, I was less patient and as the years went on got more tired- all of the symptoms got worse and worse. Vitamins didn't help, dietary changes didn't help, juicing, vegan - gluten free didn't help, herbs didn't help, acupuncture didn't help, probiotics -- none of the remedies helped.

Then came ObamaCare. It's not the Universal health care my country needs, but it is better. I have asthma and I have insurance for the 1st time since 1989. It has not been easy to find Dr.s that honor the contract they have been paid by the govt.  to be part of. Most receptionists initial questions are "What insurance coverage do you have? Is that part of Covered Care California (Obamacare)?" When the response is, "Yes"  they practically hang up on you. It took more than a week and nearly one hundred calls, but I found and internist and gastroenterologist and just like that, I have been diagnosed and now can treat what has ailed me for a decade.

Hypothyroidism requires one little pill each day (and I will see about getting rid of that need with holistic care after the bacterial infection is cleared) and this small intestinal bacteria that will be eliminated after ten days on one medication.

Life Changing.

The pharmacy is going to petition the insurance co to cover the generic version of those meds-
they cost $700. The gastroenterologist also scheduled an endoscopy and colonoscopy for June 3rd.

Wish me luck and vote for UNIVERSAL HEALTH CARE when you can.

I am a small business owner who hires and trains minorities. I create content. My company is growing.
I am making a difference in the world.
Imagine how much more I can do in good health!

For those of you who think the US has the best care available in the world because our taxes pay for invasions and war instead of health at home- you are so very wrong. Healthcare in the USA used to be number one, now it's more like number 37 according to the World Health Organization and more like 46 according to Bloomberg. If you don't think one persons health effects us all, you have a lot of awareness to catch up on.

Thank you for reading.

thyroid
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I have been taking thyroid medication for a few weeks. Today I woke up feeling refreshed and energetic!!!

I was so tired for so long; I thought it was just part of getting old. When I started working out and saw no energy lift from the work out and in fact felt EXHAUSTED from simply peddling on a stationary bike, I knew something was wrong.  I also went vegan and gluten free for a few months and again, saw no increase in energy.
When I went to Michigan, my sister and cousin, who both have hypothyroidism, suggested I get tested.
It took a 3 months to get in to see a Dr. (US health care system) but I finally did get the tests and the results led to
this prescription.

I have energy again!!!

My ankle is healing and I am not only on the stationary bike, I am walking and doing my own PT.
I have not been able to find a physical therapist that accepts Blue Shield insurance PPO that comes through
Covered Care California aka Obama Care. I went to one PT who said he accepted my insurance, but then I received a call a few days later saying, no, they don't honor my insurance if it is from California Care- the state version of Obama Care that allows people like me, who have pre existing conditions, to have insurance.  They are planning to charge me $156 for that initial visit.   Most of the Dr.s, clinics and hospitals who are contracted with the govt. to accept this insurance, simply are not honoring their contract.  It's sad how few Dr.s in the USA give a rats ass about human beings in need of their services.

Anyways, the good news is I did find one Dr. who has helped me!  I feel like a fog has been lifted!

stay at home, work, do both, survive, thrive, live and let live - let yourself live.
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The women I know are smart, healthy, talented, skilled-- sure they have some doubt, anyone who says they never doubt is lying. If you are allowing yourself to feel shame or guilt because your choice is different or your choice is being questioned, maybe it's an opportunity to take a step back, assess whether it truly is your choice, adjust if necessary to be true to yourself, commit and move forward.

Creaminess vegan gluten free style
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Cashews
soak for 4 hours
discard soak water
put in food processor and puree
add water to consistency you prefer.

Sunflower seeds
put in food processor and puree
add water to consistency you prefer.

Buy
Tahini at "ethnic" stores that cater to middle eastern clientele,
it's much less expensive there. Buy the one in the glass bottle if they have it.

You can add these thickeners to just about any dish you'd like to make creamy.

I add
lemon, olive oil, garlic, oregano, salt, pepper- maybe a dash of apple cider vinegar
to make a Greek flavor profile.

experiment.

again and again
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Whether it's witnessed in self or others, one person's lack of compassion towards another person or group of persons, stuns me. Note to self: Shake off the stun and remember to come from love again and again.

any way is good
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"when a clear mind is dissatisfied with one thing or another, a new thing can come of it that is pure glory"

until the next witness of contrast creates a bit more of dissatisfaction
and the cycle continues.
or
we can be at peace with whatever is, whatever comes

~ either way is good.

Forever Young
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Compassion is what keeps us young at heart and mind.


Aging is biological, getting old is mental and spiritual.




Let's stay young at heart!

ONE WORD ~ flow into 2014
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pros·per·i·ty
präˈsperitē/<input ... >
noun
noun: prosperity

  1. 1.
    the state of being prosperous.
    "a long period of prosperity"
    synonyms: success, profitability, affluence, wealth, opulence, luxury, the good life, milk and honey, (good) fortune, ease, plenty, comfort, security,well-being
    "she deserves all the prosperity she now enjoys"


there is beauty everywhere. there is beauty here.
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We can pause for a moment.
Look around and see the beauty in our lives, in this moment.
Do it now. 

films worth watching
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Feature Films I recommend, by category:

Comedy / Drama / Fantasy / Romance
IT'S A WONDERFUL LIFE ~ Comedy / Drama / Fantasy / Romance
WINGS OF DESIRE ~ Fantasy / Drama / Romance
FAR AWAY SO CLOSE ~ Fantasy / Drama / Mystery / Romance
HEAVEN CAN WAIT ~ Comedy / Fantasy / Romance
GIULIETTA DE SPIRITU ~ Comedy / Drama / Fantasy / Romance
WHAT DREAMS MAY COME ~ Drama / Fantasy / Romance
ON A CLEAR DAY YOU CAN SEE FOREVER ~ Comedy / Drama / Romance / Fantasy
ALL THAT JAZZ ~ Comedy / Drama / Fantasy / Romance / Musical / Based on a true story
ALWAYS ~ Comedy / Fantasy / Romance
AMELIE ~ Comedy / Fantasy / Action
BEING JOHN MALCOVICH ~ Comedy / Action / Drama

Dark Comedy
WAR OF THE ROSES ~ Dark Comedy / Romance
AMERICAN BEAUTY ~ Drama / Dark Comedy
SERIAL MOM ~ Dark Comedy
HEDGEHOG ~ Dark Comedy / Drama

Comedy / Crime / Drama
THE HEAT ~ Crime / Comedy / Buddy movie
FARGO ~ Dark Comedy / Crime
THE STING ~ Comedy / Crime / Drama
ADAPTATION~ Comedy / Crime / Drama
PAPER MOON ~ Comedy / Drama / Road Trip / Grifters

Comedy / Drama
AUNTIE MAME ~ Comedy / Drama
BEING THERE ~ Comedy / Drama
TORCH SONG TRILOGY ~ Comedy / Drama
TOOTSIE ~ Comedy / Drama
STEEL MAGNOLIAS ~ Drama / Comedy
CROOKLYN ~ Drama / Comedy
PRISCILLA QUEEN OF THE DESERT ~ Road Trip / Comedy / Drama

Comedy / Drama / Romance
HARLOD AND MAUDE ~ Comedy / Drama / Romance
THE BUTTERFLY'S DREAM ~ Drama / Comedy / Romance
THE WORD ACCORDING TO GARP ~ Comedy / Drama / Romance
ADAM'S RIB ~ ~ Comedy / Drama / Romance
FEMALE ~ Comedy / Drama / Romance
BAREFOOT IN THE PARK ~ Comedy / Drama / Romance
BREAKFAST AT TIFFANY'S ~ Comedy / Drama / Romance
BOOGIE NIGHTS ~ Comedy / Drama / Romance
AS GOOD AS IT GETS ~ Comedy / Drama / Romance
THE PHILADELPHIA STORY ~ Romantic comedy
HIS GIRL FRIDAY~ Romantic Comedy
GROUNDHOG DAY ~ Romantic Comedy
MR. MOM ~ Romantic Comedy
BIG ~ Comedy / Family
SUPERBAD ~ Comedy / Buddy movie

Immigrant
MY BIG FAT GREEK WEDDING~ Documentary (except for the Windex) / Comedy / Romance / Immigrant / Family
THE VISITOR ~ Immigrant changes a WASPS life, Drama
NAMESAKE ~ Immigrant love story

Crime / Drama
FROZEN RIVER ~ Crime Drama
TSOTSI ~ Crime Drama

Drama
TAXI DRIVER ~ Drama
AMISTAD ~ Drama
ANGEL AT MY TABLE ~ Drama
FRANCES ~ Drama
A STREETCAR NAMED DESIRE ~ Drama
GIANT ~ Drama
THE ROSE ~ Drama
MOHAGANY~ Drama
DEER HUNTER ~ Drama / War
PHILADELPHIA~ Drama
CALL HE SAVAGE ~ Drama
THE COLOR PURPLE ~ Drama
LIKE WATER FOR CHOCOLATE ~ Drama
WHITE OLEANDER~ Drama
NUTS ~ Drama
A STAR IS BORN ~ Drama
MASK ~ Drama
ALL ABOUT EVE~ Drama
DANGEROUS~ Drama
JEZEBEL ~ Drama
DARK VICTORY ~ Drama
NOW VOYAGER ~ Drama
MR. SKEFFINGTON ~ Drama
MY LIFE ~ Drama
TALK  TO HER ~ Drama
WOMAN UNDER THE INFLUENCE ~ Drama
ALICE DOESN’T LIVE HERE ANYMORE ~ Drama
IMITATION OF LIFE ~ Drama
BROADCAST NEWS ~ Drama
TRAFFICE~ Drama
MAGNOLIA ~ Twisted Drama
VALLEY OF THE DOLLS ~ Drama
FRIEND GREEN TOMATOES ~ Drama
WHO’S AFRAID OF VIRGINA WOLF ~ Drama
THE WAY WE WERE ~ Drama / Romance
CITY OF GOD ~ Drama
THE COOK, THE THEIF, HIS WIFE, AND HER LOVER ~ twisted Drama
A SEPARATION ~ Drama / Foreign
SARAH’S JEY  ~ Drama / Foreign

Musical / Comedy
FUNNY GILR ~ Comedy / Musical
FUNNY LADY ~ Comedy / Musical
THE NUTTY PROFESSOR (Jerry Lewis) Comedy / Musical
AMERICAN IN PARIS ~ Comedy / Musical
GIGI ~ Comedy / Musical
MY FAIR LADY ~  Comedy / Musical
CABARET ~ Comedy / Musical
SINGING IN THE RAIN ~ Musical / Comedy / Romance

Family
THE WIZARD OF OZ ~  Family / Adventure / Fantasy / Musical
MARY POPPINS ~ Family / Musical
EVER AFTER  ~ Family / Fairytale worth telling
MATILDA ~ Family / Action
WHALE RIDER ~ Drama / Family

Action / Sci-Fi / Fantasy
TERMINATOR~ Action / Sci-Fi / Thriller
(Sarah Connor Chronicles TV show as well) ~ Action / Sci-Fi / Thriller
E.T. ~ Sci-Fi / Fantasy
CLOSE ENCOUNTERS OF THE 3RD KIND~ Sci-Fi / Fantasy
HANDMAIDS TAIL ~ Sci- Fi / Drama / Thriller / Dystopian
BLADE RUNNER ~ Action / Sci-Fi / Thriller
X-MEN the entire franchise ~ Action / Sci Fi
G.I. JANE ~ Action / Drama
KILL BILL 1,2  ~ Action / Drama
INDIANA JONES ~ Action Adventure
EMPIRE OF THE SUN ~ Action / Drama / War
BACK TO THE FUTURE I, II, III~ Action / Science Fiction
LOOPER~ Action / Science Fiction

Sci- Fi / Fantasy / Drama
ALTERED STATES ~ Sci- Fi / Fantasy / Drama
DONNIE DARKO ~ Sci- Fi / Fantasy / Drama
12 MONKEYS ~ Sci-Fi / Fantasy / Drama
BRAZIL~ Sci-Fi / Fantasy / Drama
SIGNS ~ Sci-Fi / Drama / Mystery / Thriller
THE SKIN I LIVE IN ~ Sci-Fi / Drama / Mystery / Thriller

Drama / Mystery / Thriller
FIGHT CLUB ~ Drama / Mystery / Thriller
MEMENTO ~ Crime / Drama / Mystery / Thriller

Espionage / Drama / Mystery / Thriller
NIKITA ~ Espionage / Crime / Drama / Romance / Thriller
GROSSE POINTE BLANK ~ Espionage / Action / Assasin / Comedy
BOURNE the entire franchise ~  Espionage  / Thriller / Action / Adventure
MATA HARI ~ Espionage / Drama / War
SALT (with the new improved ending)  ~ Espionage  / Thriller / Action / Adventure

(organized) Crime / Drama / Thriller
GODFATHER 1 ~ (organized) Crime / Drama / Thriller
GODFATHER 2 ~ (organized) Crime / Drama / Thriller
GOODFELLAS ~ (organized) Crime / Drama / Thriller
CASINO ~ (organized) Crime / Drama / Thriller
RESEVOIR DOGS ~ (organized) Crime / Drama / Thriller
DONNIE BRASCO ~ (organized) Crime / Drama / Thriller
HISTORY OF VIOLENCE ~ (organized) Crime / Drama / Thriller
DEPARTED ~ (organized) Crime / Drama / Thriller
THE PROFESSIONAL ~ (organized) Crime / Drama / Thriller
TOWN ~ (organized) Crime / Drama / Thriller

Martial Arts
FISTS OF FURY ~ Martial Arts
DRUNKEN MASTER ~ Martial Arts
SEVEN SAMURAI ~ Martial Arts
Anything with Jackie Chan or Bruce Lee in it.

Based on a true story /  Drama
LADY SINGS THE BLUES ~ Based on a true story / Drama
CAMILLE CLAUDEL~ Based on a true story / Drama
MALCOLM X ~ Based on a true story / Drama
NORMA RAE ~ Based on a true story /  Drama
RABBIT PROOF FENCE ~  Based on a true story / Drama
GYPSTY ~ Based on a true story / Musical / Comedy / Drama
SILKWOOD ~  Based on a true story / Drama
AVIATOR ~ Based on a true story / Drama

Documentary
WHEN WE WERE KINGS ~ Documentary
BARAKA ~ energy and one ness documented
LATCHO DROM ~ Gypsy documentary
PARIS IS BURNING ~ Documentary / Vogue Balls, NYC Gay Scene
BALLERINA ~ Dancer's life Documentary
GOD GREW TIRED OF US ~ Documentary / Immigrant Story
EVERY LITTLE STEP ~  Documentary / Dance
EXIT THROUGH THE GIFT SHOP ~ Documentary / Graffiti
MURDER BALL ~ Documentary / Sports
POSTER GIRL  ~ Documentary / PTSD Military

Horror
THE SHINING ~ Horror / Mystery / Thriller
ROSEMARY’S BABY ~ Horror / Drama / Mystery
IDENTITY ~ Horror / Thriller
FIRE WALK WITH ME ~ Mystery / Thriller / Drama / Horror
MONSTER ~ Based on a true story / horrifying.
BABY JANE ~ yikes

Period Piece
JEZEBEL ~ Drama / Period Piece
GONE WITH THE WIND ~ Drama / Period Piece

Western
DJANGO UNCHAINED ~ Western / Tarantino Master Piece
BUTHC CASSIDY AND THE SUNDANCE KID ~ Western
MCCABE AND MRS. MILLER ~ Western



What films are on your recommend list?


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