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May. 13th, 2008 @ 04:33 pm I am fire and water - steam
How, "it's all good" works in my life:


I feel a sense of connection to the all one that we all are-  that everything is

I call this awareness grace. What do you call it in your life?
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Apr. 27th, 2008 @ 07:34 am all inclusive, the omni present, objective, oya oh yeah- Christos Anesti

God is energy, is spirit, omnipresence -
God = unconditional love.
Unconditional love includes the good and the bad, the bitter and the sweet,
both your anger and your release.
God is not restricted to black white, good bad, male female.
God is your ancestors and mine.
Ancestors are not owned by anyone.
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Apr. 26th, 2008 @ 09:37 am mind your children
a theory )


It is not a coincidence that the people who opened a new perspective on drug use when they were in their teens are the same folks drugging their children more than ever.  They waited till they were decades older than past generations to become first time parents.  They were  taking prescribed, legal drugs that alter the mind and physically damage the brain in order to avoid stress, pain, anxiety, grief and any uncomfortable, natural process.  It's no coincidence that many of the parents who are too old (mental, emotional state) to enjoy the noise of youth, to run with and dance wildly with the little rough housers they brought into this world when they were past their personal prime (with the aid of prescribed drugs) are putting their little ones on mind-altering, personality shifting, mess your brain up permanently- drugs.  In some cases the child's brain chemistry is different than what we could expect from generations past (pre- recreational drug era).   Those children require a unique approach we are too self involved or ego driven to discover.  Others are just regular children, with brains that function just fine, who are being raised by people who just don't want to deal. 

The middle class suburbs and the lower class  ghettos are full of children stuck in a in a culture that doesn't allow them to be children, outside playing and making up games, being loud and wild.  This generation is exposed to different things in a different way than any before- radically different.  Meanwhile the institutions we force our children into have not kept up with the changing world around them.  We're trying to fit our children into unsuitable molds.  The system continues to suffer without the change that addresses how unique and different from past generations the new generations are.  How worldly, how exposed, how quick to learn and get over the boring details  -  How amazing they are.  They're approaching play in a new way.  We can learn from them.

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Apr. 11th, 2008 @ 07:10 am apply joy
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she asked
how do I survive this suffering

and the answer came

as it always does

a thousand different ways

by also surviving the joys.
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Apr. 7th, 2008 @ 09:50 am Basta the fasting, folks!
You are a human animal. Human animals have instincts about what to put in their body, just as other animals do.
You are omnivorous.
You live in a modern world.
When you have a menu in front of you, a grocer at your disposal, etc. choose what you would like to ingest, not what you "should" eat. Choose with the knowledge that you know better than anyone else what is right for you.
And Please, if you have been obsessing about what is and is not good for you to ingest, know that is a lack of trust in self, not a food issue. Please note that any extreme or any diet is dis order.

If you have not been listening and a healer puts you on a diet, know it is about something else, not about food, not about your size. She or he is suggesting this to shake you up and get you on a path (eventually) where food is like air, like water, like the blood flowing thru you...and it can be poetry...stop making it a horror movie, anxious and restricted.

Fuel your body, mind and spirit
as Goddess intended. She trusts you.
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Mar. 28th, 2008 @ 09:16 pm can you say "oops, my bad?"
People say stupid shit all the time.  When we're called on it, ideally, we realize, "oh yeah, that was stupid shit, my bad" and let it go.
When we choose to defend a statement that is unworthy of defense and then go as far as the victim role rather than  handling the response -
it's just silly.


Making a sexist statement when you do not consciously choose to be a sexist, is an opportune time to say, "oops".
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Mar. 16th, 2008 @ 09:49 am I'm not always pretty, I am straightforward though.
Real life, full of stopping and smelling flowers, is not always so  pretty.  It is mostly easy.

I wont always comfort people in my life when we're working through something, whether it is me helping them, us working together or  them helping me.
I wont always comfort, especially if I honestly feel there is an issue that all the comforting only propagates.

That is part of being authentic.

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Mar. 13th, 2008 @ 11:44 am We are all Adorable



Allow people to adore you
without putting too much importance on their adoration.
Allow enough importance  to enjoy it for what it is.
It is something that can help you move forward.
Due to it's fickle nature,
accept adoration without attaching to it.
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Feb. 23rd, 2008 @ 02:44 pm

There is a spiritual awareness to be shared and gifted. There is equality for and amongst women in media.  It's happening. Our voices are being heard as we get through the cracks.  Soon enough glass ceilings and walls are bursting apart allowing passage. There is something to learn, earn from this challenge.  Nothing is wasted, it's all learning.

So, now that I've vented,
I can let go of the folks who choose not to serve a similar purpose and make room for those committed to being the change....I'm conscious of where the  pearls are cast.
I'm going for a walk in the cool rain. Finding something Green to ingest and some Indigo to see.
Letting go of expectations and drawing a line in the sand at the same time.
If you get it, good.   If not, good bye.

Those who get what I have to offer benefit immensely.
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Feb. 12th, 2008 @ 08:07 pm Another one for Soup
Minoan labrys, 2nd millennium BC
He said, "So, do you know who the god of rescue is?...I mean, I know there are gods and goddesses of healing and all that, but is there one specifically of rescue....?"
I responded hesitantly, "Hmmm, probably..."
and as I start listing the healers and how they can work in rescue form, he interrupts me. He knows the healers, he is seeking something more specific.
So I share some of the way I see it, as someone who has a great love of archetypes.
"Ya' know, Soup, you can make your own archetype. Make your own god of rescue, cause you're an emanation of the one unifying force we can call god...you don't need all the bells and whistles, names of gods and stories.  Make your own god of rescue...it's all good"


If we had more time on the phone I would have shared my belief that superheroes are like gods too.
Wonder Woman, Superman, Batman, Phoenix  and characters like Alice and Dorothy work like

 gods on our hearts and minds

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Feb. 11th, 2008 @ 07:16 am this post is for Soup
Just rambling these thoughts out for now...it's weaved into my stories...but, here's something like an explanation...

More often that not, I have an intuition or observation that I follow for awhile.
I'll study, research, practice and be what I observed till I know it for sure.
For instance, the magical effect of flowers, music and climate on humans.
I noticed a difference in my mother's energy or aura, if you will, when she passed by her flowers in the summertime and breathed them in. She is from an island where flowers are in such great abundance, it effects the culture. Where I was being raised, flowers were a scarcity, especially in the winter. That scarcity provided the contrast that would allow me to see clearly that my mother had a connection and was profoundly affected by flowers.

When we visited the island of her origin, we stayed with her aunt. She was the one known, on an island of flower abundance, for having a green thumb...We shared visits from the wild aunt who lived on the mountain surrounded by wild chamomile (she was the herbalist - more about her teachings in another post).
While there, I noticed the change in my being. Of course a change happened from the moment we arrived off the plane, like Alice in Wonderland, each place has it's own energy we can play in, respond to or ignore.... Beyond that initial travelers shift, by the time we got to my aunts home with the flowers, change took on another layer- a deeper, flowing, serenity that allowed pure giddy outbursts of joy to express.

My mothers people are known for being passionate, known for their music and the freshness of their food. It's in the soil (red dirt), the air (ocean air ions), the climate (warm and wet, but, not muggy) and the flowers.
Flowers affect us on so many levels. As children we are not too shy to touch them...and for those of us who are allowed our sixth sense- well, the flowers speak to us.
Even on that island, the winter can be quite cold and wet. The wet cold doesn't go on long enough for people to completely shift out of their easy going ways. Their bodies remember the flexibility warmth allows. Flower essences have been stored and brought out for special recipes. When grandmother makes cookies on my mothers island, the faint scent of flowers is mixed in with the scent of sugar and butter. Herbs are dried for infusions, and sprinkling on foods that are still fresh. It doesn't get so cold as to not be able to fish or farm.
Which brings me to another body, mind, spirit altering factor. The freshness of a fruit that was raised less than a mile away (or in the case of grapes - overhead) , in soil known to be the most fertile, being cut open - fills the home and terrace with it's scent, it's taste and it's energy. The concentrated nutrients coupled with all senses being stimulated naturally, make for healthier, happier people. Colors change us. Scent changes us. Warmth ...it all has a profound effect that moves us to create music. Music that is a conversation with the surroundings allow us to dance with the essence of it all. Even when it appears one isn't dancing, music creates atmosphere. In the case of a rich culture blessed with warmth and the abundance that grows in it- Music allows us to be more connected to the atmosphere.


All of these things raise the seratonin level naturally, allowing us more openness...and a sense of freedom. Our stimulated brains accept grace more easily.

In places where there is live music, flowers, fresh food, spices and warmth, we are more open, we tend to be friendlier, we tend to have cultural expressions like:
"It's all good" (New Orleans)
"Nothing is ever finished by the grace of Allah" ( Morrocco)
Cei la vie (South of France)
"Shall we dance, then?" Zorba, the Greek
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Feb. 9th, 2008 @ 07:03 am It's what gave the Hippies a bad name
When people are new at setting boundaries and realizing they can only control themselves, they can make the mistake of running around thinking if they just think happy thoughts, there will be no bad in the world. If they just put a smile on it and a shrug of the shoulders, viola, responsibility for their words and actions disappear only to be replaced by Happy Happy. That is pretentious and comes off as condescending. It's a way to shun responsibilty. It's what gave the hippies a bad name.
Ya' gotta own up to what you say and do before any real change can occur.
Understand your part in the situation.
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Feb. 7th, 2008 @ 10:39 pm unprecedented
Most people who have the opportunity to hire other people are interested in how you can serve them and their project or business...they may ask, "what else do you do? or want to do? or where do you see yourself..." They don't really want to know your true answer, they want to know how you see yourself serving them, period - nothing else. Most people who are typically employable answer the questions, knowing they aren't sincere questions, with even less sincere answers.
That's OK -
that is how business is usual.

I am different. I knew that before and it is reinforced daily.
When I ask people to work WITH me I am inviting the whole person. When I offer to work with people I am offering my whole self. I may ask them to focus in one way or another on a project, while continueing to see their greatness, just as I can focus one way or another. Everyone I spend any time with is multidimensional. I see the light in them. I see light.
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Jan. 1st, 2008 @ 08:47 am One Word

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Some of us like to use a word for the year, rather than a To Do list with resolve.
As adults, most of us have plans and know what we like and choose to increase in our lives . Choosing one word to inform the year, helps increase the energy that the word carries for us, into the year.

Why one word?
When I taught Yoga every week at a corporate gym, I recall very few of the "Resolution-ites" sticking around until Spring.
One year, I decided to become proactive with them, rather than just noticing or joking about the temporary state of "resolution".
At the end of each class, during chanting, I would ask them to let out the one word that described what they would like to experience more of.
Words I could identify were, "Joy, Grace, Love, Compassion, Good Health. "
No one said,  "Lose weight", thank goodness. Good health was popular though.
When I awakened this morning  I realized  that I have not settled on one word yet.
One friend tells me, "It's the year of Harvesting."  He used "Building bridges" to guide him last year.  Seeing how that went,  I'm sure he'll be harvesting the fruit of many a seed in the coming year.
As for me, hearing the word "Harvest" sounds good and is going to be a part of my year, but, will it be the major signifying theme?  I'm reminded of the seeds I am just now planting.
Last year my word was Learning.  Specifically, learning more about the Film medium. I accepted every opportunity to learn and develop new Film Making skills. I learned to work in Excel, how to make a budget in Point Zero and Excel, I learned how to Schedule a Production, Break Down a Script, Write a Tagline, and a Synopsis and I learned more about writing a script. I learned about Contracts, how to read them and write them (there is still more to learn of course). I learned that I can Hire, Negotiate Deal Memos and Contracts, run a bigger budget Production and do it well and with grace.  I was more organized than ever before and developed new organizational skills.  I re-learned and honed AD skills.  I learned a new skill with every Film job I accepted.  I didn't earn as much money as I could have in those jobs.  As a matter of fact, I often accepted half  the going rate for the job, so that I could learn.

I think Abundance is perhaps more suitable for me this year. As in:  financial abundance, abundance of great opportunities, abundance of good work, abundance of joy, abundance of faith, abundance of grace and compassion...

Yes, this year my word is
 ABUNDANCE
and so it is!
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Dec. 30th, 2007 @ 10:34 am Follow the light without being blinded by it
"I think it is precisely because people do not want to hear these stories that they need to be written."
Polly P.

Do you see it? There is light in those words.

I am all for seeing the grace in any and everything, it's something I'm known for. However,
I'm confronted by the inauthentic positivity one can slip into.  Positivity can twist into something ugly when it covers it's ear to someones truth.  I am not speaking of putting things in a different light, changing the perspective and finding the beauty in it...that can be authentic.  I am speaking of the shunning that occurs when people pretend for themselves that they have evolved into a state of not tolerating any sadness, frustrations or fear in the world.  Made of straw, the pretentious lose authentic, soulful, caring positivity.  I'm sure I've been there a few times myself.   Just then,  reality arrives at my door, as someone asking for help I can give freely and abundantly.  The reality is
I am not alone in the world with just one perspective.  To acknowledge and honor another perspective before  offering mine, is a worthy goal.

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Dec. 25th, 2007 @ 01:10 pm
Miracles happen everyday.
Everyday is a miracle.


Thousands of years ago a child was born and it was said to be a miracle.
On your birthday, a miracle occurred as well. You were born and there was a star burning bright in the universe. You are sacred.

Everyday someone defies the known laws of physics and we identify it as a miracle. Everyday you take another breath for granted, or a step or the blink of an eye.  Whether that blinking eye can see or not, just that blink you take for granted- it's a miracle.

Life is a simple miracle.
Life is a complex miracle.

I was pronounced dead and returned to tell you:

Miracles happen
Every day
is a Miracle
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Dec. 22nd, 2007 @ 01:20 pm
Even after you process it- the answer is still going to be:

just do it

At the end of really good therapy, introspection and self realization:

Go on now

you can

Go ahead

before, during and after the excuses, the processing, the therapy and spiritual practices:

just do it
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Dec. 10th, 2007 @ 11:54 pm under represented is the new word for minority
Women, like any other minority, have learned to identify with heroes who don't look like them or have the same genitalia.  We've learned to look beyond the structure of a body and instead dive further into characteristics.  I just want the same opportunity for straight, white men, that's all....
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Dec. 6th, 2007 @ 08:30 am re-member storyteller, stream of consciousness writing
Once in awhile, bits and pieces of my life story spill out...and some of the things I've experienced, the places I've been are described a bit... I see and feel doubt in the listeners body language, a language I am fluent in.  They simply can't (and I am not invested in helping them get past that) believe it.  Or they don't want to believe it because, what does that mean about their story?  They are listening with ego (it's not really listening)...and Maybe I am sharing with ego too (it's not really sharing)?

~ It's a moment of forgetfulness. ~
I have forgotten in that moment that I do not need anyone to bear witness. A witness is a luxurious, nutritious treat.
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Nov. 22nd, 2007 @ 08:21 am
Some experiences I just gotta say, " oh, so that's what ___________ is like. OK, what's the best way to go through this? " Meditation comes in handy, as does counsel from loved ones and people who have placed themselves in the position of spiritual adviser.
Looking at it from a distant perspective, as one who may have lived many incarnations..."Oh, in this incarnation, _______ was part of it. " That's how I get through some challenges.
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