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May. 12th, 2008 @ 09:18 am SNaX
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8 levels of giving
the highest is to give of your time and resources. I gave at a 6 or 7  this week, and yes- on mothers day.  I was paid (way below the usual rate) and worked with many hats on for a project that promotes healthy eating habits and exercise to our kids in LAUSD.  It may or may not be all that effective, but, it's at least a drop in the bucket towards promoting good choices and exposing the conditioning that comes from corporations.  I became involved initially through a production company I know, respect and have come to love.  I'm grateful for the call from Sonia and looking forward to another week of it.

 
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May. 9th, 2008 @ 08:59 pm
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Working with a female producer, pro feminist male EP's & director in a diverse production company that is laid back, conscious, creative, skilled, talented...I am not the only multi-talented one, not the only artist who can also handle the office.
We are working on a soically conscious project to top it off..the pay is really low, I enjoy working more than anything else so it's not just about the money.

I'm enjoying it

I love working with these conditions.

These conditions with good pay is bliss-

coming soon.


Now I am watching the Jimmy Carter appearance on the Tonight Show
(TVO)  Jimmy Carter is not just my fave president and activist, he is not just a crush -
of all the men in the world I am not directly related to-
he's my favorite man.
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May. 2nd, 2008 @ 10:54 am Affirmative Action Plea
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Not every industry is regulated. Small businesses, film production companies, internet start ups, are not forced to hire with a conscience regarding minorities.  It takes conscientious effort on the part of the business owner, producer, PM, and anyone who is in a position to hire, to be on the side of equal rights and positive social change.  It isn't that women and other minorities are not developing the skills, possessing the talent, the drive or eagerness to perform a job well, as a matter of fact, we tend to work harder to prove ourselves.  We do not have membership in the white boys club that hires, and greenlights so many jobs, careers and projects.  If you are choosing to be conscious in this lifetime and have a positive lasting effect, consider women and other minorities when creating opportunities. 
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Mar. 31st, 2008 @ 10:02 pm
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working on a spec pilot
12 plus hour days
and
loving it

love the process
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Mar. 16th, 2008 @ 09:49 am I'm not always pretty, I am straightforward though.
Real life, full of stopping and smelling flowers, is not always so  pretty.  It is mostly easy.

I wont always comfort people in my life when we're working through something, whether it is me helping them, us working together or  them helping me.
I wont always comfort, especially if I honestly feel there is an issue that all the comforting only propagates.

That is part of being authentic.

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Mar. 4th, 2008 @ 08:39 am HEIDI!
I was 21.  My boyfriend, his brother and I  moved out of the Seyburn house, where they were 2 of my 12 male house mates, to the house behind the Kraut funeral home in Hamtramick.    We turned the Kraut house into an art piece.  By the time we finished painting and decorating the space, it looked like a cowboy on acid ran away from the circus and got lost in Turkey.  I had also just disassembled one of the largest interactive installations of my career.  The 6 months previous had been consumed by performance art, public ritual and an installation with occasionally scheduled free time spent going out on the “scene”.  The installation was both alive and dead, recycling and re-birthing.  Live and recorded images and sounds intertwined as participants strolled through the Michigan Gallery.  It took months to create the installation and only days to disassemble.
 
Back then, when I completed an installation or a performance, I could take time afterward to just “veg out”. The atmosphere we created in the Kraut house  was exactly what I needed to rest in.  I was home listening to Robert Johnson 78’s when my boyfriends brother stormed in disturbing my bluesy, semi vegetative state with his working man woes.   He was earning his way as a hair stylist and his salon was in some sort of a fix.  His working man's panic was making me dizzy.  I wanted him to slow down, "shhh get quiet" and melt into the atmosphere I’d created.  Instead he was begging me to come in and play receptionist for a day at his trendy, expensive, salon known as "HEIDIS". "You're  the only one I know with classic pieces in your wardrobe, just dress like an actress from the 40's or 50's.."  He was in a pinch.  After much convincing that it would be an “experience” I decided to pitch in.  Spending the day with the mainstream world in a shopping center hair salon would be a performance and a social experiment.  It was going to require a costume.  Back then, my hair was 1/4 inch short, growing back from bald, I wore fishnets that were old and tattered, held up with garters, with high heeled combat boots, mini skirts, and a black bra showing through my shirt, under a leather jacket (somehow, I was magically immune to the brittle cold of Detroit winters).  I did have pieces in my wardrobe that were classic: pencil skirts, black slacks, turtle necked little black dresses, and several Audrey Hepburn ensembles.
I channeled my mother the make-up artist and applied make up as she would- Viola!  I was Chic/hip.

When I arrived at the salon a bleached blond, flamboyant, stressed out hair stylist threw a pen at me, handed me the phone and pushed me into the spot he had been occupying behind the desk, in front of a large desk sized calendar.  He sighed in loudly, clutched his pearls and let out his breath as he  exclaimed, "Oh! thank GOD you're here! This is not my job, I'm an artist, people are waiting for me!!!" and off he went.  I started right away, no application, no interview, and only 20 seconds of training.

Half way through the day, a whirlwind of a woman made her entrance.  She had straight, shoulder length black hair, bright red lipstick, sharp clothing & an Israeli accent she spoke succinctly with.  She entered the Salon, stopped in her tracks, scanned the scenario, did a double take on me and announced in my direction, "YOU ARE MANAGEMENT MATERIAL".
I was startled, "Oh... uhh, no, no. I'm just pitching in for a friend.....just here today."
'OK, WE TALK IN A MOMENT" hand extended "I AM HEIDI! OF HEIDIS SALON"  We shook hands and the whirlwind continued on her path.
Later, she came to the desk with one of the stylists who was in training.  As that trainee took over my reception duty, and I was barely into my break from catty, hair styling, diva traffic control,
HEIDI!  took me aside to ask me what changes I would make in this salon if it were mine?
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Feb. 29th, 2008 @ 11:14 am SHOWGIRL
We ran into each other at a Samba Dance Class. She was friends with the instructor, I was there for the live drums I craved.
My breathing was OK that day, so I was up at the front of the huge class for Parade style Afro Brazilian Samba.

M recognized me first and reminded me of the gig she offered when she saw me dance at Cafe' Brazil in NOLA 5 years before. She had a performance group that she managed well enough to tour the world with and eventually landed a gig in Vegas at the Rio. Once again, she offered me a gig.
Of course, I was having a good breathing day, but, I explained, "...Often, I'm not breathing well enough to stand up, let alone dance at this level."
I went on to explain to her that I could breathe well if I took meds that had severe side effects, but, I tried not to take them too often. I swear I saw a light click on in her head. In her rhythmic accent, she exclaimed, "Perfecto! You can share the job with Graciella. How many days do you take the medication to work?"
Turns out Graciella's boyfriend was a boxer and she wanted to travel with him to his fights overseas. As long as I had two days notice, I could be in Vegas, breathing and dancing - no prob. Graciella could travel,  I could make a living and M didn't have to find a replacement.  That is how inclusive, circular, spirit rich, feminine business works.
And so my work at the Rio, in Las Vegas, began.
I met Graciella and it was like looking in my Brazilian mirror. She was a tan version of me with more hair. Actually, everyone in the group sort of looked alike. We weren't like the typical 5'7", 110 lb. Showgirls in Vegas. We were all 5'4" and weighed between 115-120lbs with big rear ends and strong thighs. We were the Sambista's.

My experience with the women I danced with at the Rio was incredible. That industry is said to be highly competitive. It's said to only be open to anglos who got too tall for ballet. It's said to be cut throat and full of all the evil that competition is supposed to create between women...Who says?
My experience was not at all like that.
When the Man who produced the shows at the Rio Hotel and Casino scoffed at the idea of two women sharing a gig, the dancers conspired to hide my identity. She/we even had a solo in the show. On the nights when "the man" was in the audience, someone else performed the solo so I could be more inconspicuous. Funny thing is, we must have all looked alike to him. He came backstage once, looked directly at me, and spoke to me as if I was Graciella....

The other dancers could have screwed up my gig, they could have screwed Graciella over too. They didn't.  When it was revealed that I could do aerial work, they made sure I tried out for the "Parade in the Air" show. Dancers who had been the more typical Showgirls (physically) that were  part of the air show helped me train. They helped me with my audition and never told anyone that Thomai was occasionally Graciella....The Showgirls and the Sambista's were amazing women. They were a miracle in my life.

The experience I had with Showgirls in Vegas, was the most feminist work experience I've ever had.

©Thomai Hatsios,  o8
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Feb. 9th, 2008 @ 05:40 pm
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I am doing it with unconditional love and grace....all of it.
Film, Commercial, Music Video, Documentary,
all of it
everything I do
is with unconditional love.
Even where it's said it can't be done that way- the film industry is known for a less loving way- So?
I'm sure there is a Dr. Martin Luther King Jr. quote out there that suits this perfectly- He didn't spit back when some unknown ass spit on him. He made a more profound statement with his resolve to love that person.

I am focused on living, growing, accomplishing with love.

To the ruthless, that I encounter on my path out here in L.A., I quote that great man saying, "I don't like you, but, I love you".

Unconditional love strengthens...if you feel as fragile as glass, practice authentic Agape- it is strengthening.
Understanding the motivation behind something and forgiving, while protecting, encouraging, supporting is loving. The honesty in unconditional love cancels out doormat behavior.

Unconditional love is not only quiet and meditative. It doesn't mean everything fits into a hole or box. Anyone who had a mother who loved them unconditionaly, knows that.

So a challenge came up this week. I gave myself a day to release it. I give myself a lifetime to see the grace in all of it.

I have work to do. I continue in this incarnation to do that work. It is easier for me to maintain integrity and succeed than it is to be ruthless. I chose to stay alive to re-mind people of miracles. I am a miracle. Life is a miracle.
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Oct. 28th, 2007 @ 03:15 am Happy New Year
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"Why... I'm not a witch at all..."
Dorothy from the Wizard of Oz

It is the weekend leading into all Souls Day / The Day of the Dead / All Saints Day
and we are shooting under a full moon with clouds that are rare for this city.
The DP shot the moon last night.
Tonight we shot  with the moon just waning and weather slightly changing...
our location-
a cemetery, honoring the dead, the ancestors- of course, oh yeah
Oya

on my production report I'll write
Delay: *Joker 15 min.
Delay: Smoke 14 min.

Just a reminder from the grand trickster that it's all smoke and mirrors
A reminder  to laugh.

Really love the talent on this Pilot. Bright kids and adults who can truly act well.
Enjoying the subtleties of their humor, curiosity and openness...
I'm learning from someone who knows her stuff, has a sense of humor and is not afraid.
I'm so grateful to be learning this now.


Quote of the day, "This is a teaching hospital"

last one out:
2:10

*it's a type of light.
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Jun. 11th, 2007 @ 11:39 am We LIVE We LEARN
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  • a job i worked on more than quadrupled
        the budget tripled
        the quality was 10x what they signed up for originally
        the production went smoothly
        pre production challenges came from the agency and the constantly changing vision
        I hope my efforts were appreciated
        I worked some major grace into that whole scene
        I  did a great job for half the going rate.
  • the next job i was hired for was simple, straight forward & i had plenty of office support. I kept it under budget. Saved the company plenty o money.
  • another  job i was hired on was to replace a sick Producer in the field on her 7 year docu (it's in yr. 2)
        she is getting better. We worked out a trade agreement. She is good for it, still i had her sign a contract         before i took over for 4 days of shooting with her minimal crew. I was surrounded by wind turbines.

Now
I am including an accordian clause in my deal memo. As the budget increases, so does my rate:
10 % of production
or a higher daily rate (double)
my deal memo will include a bonus for staying under  budget.

I insist on pre-pro meetings or catch up pre-pro. In other words, if the person who was at the pre pro meetings is wearing other hats and has given me the Producer hat- I must be able to have a clarifying meeting with the agency regarding overal prod. value, vision, goals, etc.
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Sep. 8th, 2006 @ 08:41 am the journey of a thousand miles begins with
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ofcourse i made more money with the 45 min.
instore commercial and demo for JVC i Directed

and other professional gigs
I was given based on this lil 3 min. Video Poetry:
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montage of my completely independent productions which includes music videos, two docu.'s an experimental film, the interview of the Dalai Llama, etc.

which led to a Video Montage with more PAID work and additional footage from other
JVC gigs, Live shows, etc.

it contains elements from the docu. W.O.W.

I kept that piece for Marie's Judy Chicago commissioned work Morgasm 2025 separate, but I thought you might like to know about a Museum dedicated to female orgasm, right, why not?


I've written 2 shorts a PSA and a feature length film (the feature will have financial return for investors)


I am grateful to make a living working on other people's projects, from a USC film student to NBC promo's in several capacities that include:
Director, Producer, Field Producer, Editor, UPM, Coordinator, A.D., 2nd A.D., 2nd 2nd A.D. Key P.A., Office P.A. , Stills Photographer, Coordinator, the job your going to give me or refer me to cause you know I'll make you look good so i can continue to develop my talent and gather my support system and offer you gigs one day...I also volunteer as a Yoga instructor in the ghetto and the burbs (where it's really needed- haha) and for Agape, I  Camera Operate, soon I'll be Directing Switchers for Agape as well..I mentor , sit in counsel & occasionally i choreograph.
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Aug. 16th, 2006 @ 04:43 pm Mothers do it all
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a Dr. that my sister Lasca worked with delivered a patient's baby and 9 minutes later gave birth to her own child.
so, the fact that i just took a 45 minute JVC instore commercial that I directed and cut it down to 1 min 38 seconds for my Directors reel and am aboout to write another short film script is not that big a deal.
I sure am relieved though.
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Aug. 2nd, 2006 @ 11:03 am etymology- lance
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freelance:
"medieval mercenary warrior," 1820, from free + lance; apparently a coinage of Sir Walter Scott's. Fig. sense is from 1864; the verb is first attested 1903.
lance:
c.1290, from O.Fr. lance, from L. lancea "light spear" (It. lancia, Sp. lanza, Ger. Lanze), possibly of Celt-Iberian origin. The verb meaning "to pierce with a lance" is from c.1300; the surgical sense (properly with ref. to a lancet) is from 1474. Lance corporal (1786) is from obsolete lancepesade "officer of lowest rank" (1578), from O.It. lancia spezzata "old soldier," lit. "broken lance."

oh that is so warrior. i am open to the wise way of committing to a team worthy of my gifts for the long run!
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May. 31st, 2006 @ 12:04 pm am i ever going to get this?
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Sometimes it seems I'm way too passionate for my own good. i have high moral standards, values, integrity and expect others to be on the same page with me there.
i expect
too much

expect

and too

i can correct ill concieved notions of too and realize there is no such thing as too much of anything. There is just enough to have a certain effect/cause...there is a reason for it all. Read more... )
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Mar. 19th, 2006 @ 10:04 am Day 48, I am the Bad- Ass Good Witch
If i only had the Fund$, the Money, the Green Light....
that song looped in my head while at a low paying shit gig yesterday. yes, i am a descendant of Dorothy and her crew, Alice in her Wonderland too...now, it's
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Time to let go of the evil stepsisters
and real eyes of course
the tin man had a heart
the scarecrow was brilliantly brimming with intellect
the lion courageous as a king ought to be and more so

I therefore am wealthy, have Fund$, Money, the Green Light is here for me to open my eyes and SEE.

Season for non violence suggests we use our powers to create peace

I'm a Woman of Wonder, That Girl, all that talent and skills

are you a Good Witch or a Bad Witch?


why, i'm not a Witch at all
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Feb. 20th, 2006 @ 10:50 am Day 21, enjoy the Spice of Life while ya keep on keepin' on
Laissez les bontemps rouler!

Let the Good Times Roll

let go the bad times...shoo fly don't bother me...

lay down my sword and stone...down by the river side...

wash me in the river


what more you need to be at peace than that huh?

go one now...
'tis the season!

now with all that fun, i gotta keep in mind, while working in the film/video/media industry (or anywhere i guess) to watch my own back (it would be nice if someone else did too, but, i'm not expecting)...gather tools, develop skills and be sure to command a fair trade.

I am out of hard drive space. Last year i bought myself 2 pairs of pants, two t-shirts and some undies, a coffee press and an external hardrive. That Drive is FULL ...
I need another external hardrive. Lacking hard drive space just screwed me out of having footage from the last THREE projects i directed, post prod. supervised...god bless it ! and what the heaven ?
the, " i dont have money cause i cant show my work cause i dont have harddrive space to update my reel..." cycle stinks BAD.
It's a cycle i'm jumping off...

Meanwhile...a project is in limbo...no bill money, barely able to cover groceries this month...faith and tenacity and
learning to watch my own back. Time to take the pink shades off the eyes that are on the back of my head.

I figure while I'm between gigs it would be a good time to take that RV to NOLA. When I get there I can get some footage as well. See my home and my family members...A family will have a better home than a tent for goodness sake. Where is the gas money going to come from?

Shoo fly, don't bother me
Shoo fly, don't bother me
If it wasn't for the warden and them lowdown hounds
I'd be in New Orleans 'fore the sun go down
-- Big Chief's battle chant, written by a chief while in the state prison in Angola
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Feb. 5th, 2006 @ 07:25 pm yeah, i actually sent this
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Brian,
In the future, JVC has to give you enough time to write a complete script allowing the Director (me) time to go over it and make minor changes for flow. The Actors ought to have at least one day with the script. Thus allowing for onset etiquette ie., Sound can focus only
on sound, Director on the Actors, etc. Generally, it helps a DP to have the camera ahead of time, but, if not possible, then an overview of setting requirements for post ought to be in writing (checklist form). Hiring a capable Prod. Coordinator to make sure the camera is ready on time, and other things fall into place easily, is necessary. If a UPM is not on set then at least an experienced P.A. who is proving readyness to go to that level ought to be part of the team. If you want your daughter to learn on set, she is welcome as an Intern. I worked as an AD enough in the past that I can make do without, but, generally, I wouldn't count on that ability in the typical Director.
The projects you mentioned sound interesting. You have admirable skills and talent getting the deals as a Producer. I would like to know more about them and recommend we take it up a notch on set.
looking forward,
Thomai
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Jan. 28th, 2006 @ 10:57 pm
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I love (you) SO (much)
I evolve

or

love (you) SO (much)
evolve

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The shoot went well! T, the D.P. and I are really enjoying working together! Her A.C. is a gem! the Gaffer, Grip were right on!...the actors performed wonderfully..easily...20 extras in 2 costumes changes! smoothly smoothly...very little evidence of the challenges we met in pre-production...a few (like not getting location 1 earlier) were dealt with as well as possible.....

simply put- we wrapped 17 set ups in 9 hours ya'll!

wooohoooo!


i thoroughly enjoy Directing production
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Jan. 10th, 2006 @ 10:24 am the Ultimate TO DO list
Most of these suggestions are free or inexpensive.

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Jan. 9th, 2006 @ 07:16 am Journey
There are artists who come from wealth. They have every class, tutor, tool & assistant handed to them. They spend a small portion of their lives dependent until trust funds become available.
There are working artists whose fine art work, skills, tools, etc. are funded by various gigs and commissioned work.
There are struggling and starving artists.
There are artists dependent on social programs.
An artist is not determined by birthright, struggle, ease, sexual orientation, morals, values, friends, acquaintances, ancestors, intelligence, charm, beauty, location, religion, right or left handedness- size does not matter... What informs one persons art does not necessarily inform another's and can vary from moment to moment. An artist is one who seemingly can not repress creative inspiration... by any medium, by any means, an artist allows art to come through. Artists are not as uncommon as many artists like to believe. For instance, all mothers are artists.

In the end each journey has it's lessons, it's benefits, it's curses...the art that comes thru does not care either way.
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